haunted

my past is catching up with my present..

and i am very very disturbed.

and i need guidance..

SO HELP ME LORD!

i need more clues to the signs that u are sending me!

-me-

p.s- why is this happening?.. i'm taking it as a sign that GOD says i should start looking...

but HE has yet to point me the direction which i should be heading.

will pray more about it.

BEFORE I DO ANYTHING RASH & STUPID.

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take this sinking boat and point it home.

we've still got time...

-falling slowly-

OTOKE~~~~

i am this close to driving all the way to suway pyramid

(eventho i have no idea how to get there)

to buy that

awesome-beautiful-feminine-RM80 bucks-dress

which have been

lingering in my mind for

3 days

-driving me crazy-

which i have

NO PLACE,

NO REASON

and

NO OCCASION

to wear

by which the RM80 should be appropriately channeled to getting me a pair or perhaps 2 pairs of shoes (which i really need for teaching practice)

SO HELP ME LORD!!!
HOWWWWW NOWWWW!!
OTOKE~~

*inner mind conversation*

JINNI: i want that dress!!!!!!!!!
PANDA: but for what!!!
JINNI: i want it!!!!
PANDA: where will u wear it?! to school?! crazy ar?!!
JINNI: i WILL find a place and a reason wan!!! i WILL!!! i WILL!!!!
PANDA: really?!!! like that white dress you wore and walk around in the bedroom?!
JINNI: pls.. pls.. it's on my mind 3 days dy!!! i am SUFFERING now!!!!!! *rolls and moans*
PANDA: pls arr.. i think u need a baju kurung more.. and a pair of heels..
JINNI: what if i get it all..kan ? kan?
PANDA: print money ar u? pls be more wise in ur spendings lar..
don't make me walk there and slap u ar..
JINNI: otoke otoke!!!!!!
PANDA: sleep on it..
JINNI: har?!!! again?!!!
PANDA: OK! if tmr u think of it again, then we'll have another conversation about this ok.
JINNI: *frothing at the mouth* guk guk.. hmm.. i dun need it.. i knw i knw.. but i WANT it!!!!
OK. i will SLEEP on it!!! i don't care! i WILL think about it tmr!!i will!!! i know i will!


-sometimes i really hate the other more rational me-

unfounded worries

sometimes i worry that i am not consuming enough vegetables.
when i do consume enough that is, i worry that i am plaguing my body with pesticides.

what will happen

what will happen

if u allow a person with

absolute bad sense of direction

drive back to KL alone?

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well.

i don't know.

but

we will find out

TOMORROW

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to the rest,

drive safe

:)

time and tide

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in a sea of people;

without an identity,

i have never felt more alone.

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chuahe~

"who doesn't like a guy who can sing, dance, cook & clean + good looking ?"

*Super Adonis Camp*

hahaha so funny...

and oh, i am smitten~

*heart*

than those flirty flirty guys,
with their flirty flirty eyes..
i rather have a paper doll to call my own

:)

going back to PJ in 10 days time -___-
but let's not talk about that.

anyway, the reason i am updating is because i am still waiting for SAC to load on youtube.
hahaha..
oh! and House M.D is listed as the MOST watched series!!
who can really hate a sexist,racist,cynical,dry humour of a doctor?


oh, and those jimo-ing , u can listen to the embedded song sung by Yesung frm SUJU.
me likey~

muaks
love y'all

OHH>>

P.S!!! i want to watch "a story SADDER than SADNESS"

i really wonder how sad must one really really needs to be to be sadder than sadness..

You are so gorgeous~

the letter that came...was... =.=" watever~

but what have i been doing?
let me tell u..(again)
eat,sleep,watch movie, eat,read, sleep, walk dog,eat,read,eat,eat..
all the eating and sleeping added 2kg to the scale..
my cheeks are rounder.
and the horror of wearing jeans 1st time since the hols (other days i wear track pants and shorts)
i can hardly fit in it @_@
my sis who saw me eating midnight snack for 2 weeks straight told me i suffered from the worst PMS in history..

but now PMS over, food craving is over too i think
ohh.. i drank 1L of dutch lady strawberry milk in 6hrs (eughh~ never like strawberry..)
but WTH 1L of that strawberry nonsense is slushing around in my stomach now..
let's not talk beauty talk now ok
but oh ya, i have to say this!
Swan weather is so SIAO hot that i have acne breakouts real bad..
i.e-the face is like a mini IRAQ with volcanoes..(not a nice sight)

this morning i was busy,
went over to sitiawan, checked on the malay dude that's doing the gate thing..
the electrician came and repaired the air cond..
and to, READ this..
FIX THE HOLE IN THE WALL WHICH I DONNO FOR WHAT REASON HE DRILLED IT THERE!
-____-"
and paid bills at the post office

everynight i sleep at approx 3-4 am.
wake up at 12pm
but yesterday pecah record 3 pm oni bangun..
and today pecah record 10am woke up! ;)
it's not like i want to sleep late and wake up late ya..(memang dasar pemalas)
i just cannot sleep at night.. really.. toss and turn till 5 am
heheh

so i just befriended youtube
and watch korean boyband(omg, ya i knw~ adui!! haiyoo~ommo~)
they are called SUJU (super juniors -damn banyak members i think 13 ppl!!)
i watch their reality tv show and EHB(exploration of the human body ^__^.. sounds so wrong kan?)

suju~~~

peekture "pinjam"-ed from http://www.asianpopcorn.com

and i like all of them! yeh.. aku yang tidak berat sebelah..
walaupun dalam ati aku,aku yang nak satu brother yang kiut macam itu donghae
nak lagi satu boifren yg kuat macam itu kangin,hensem macam itu shiwon,funny macam itu heechul, pandai masak maciam itu hangeng, bole nyanyi macam itu yesung..13 nama wei..
penat nak cakap lar.. pigi tengok itu show kat youtube..
depa punya english.. speaking betul! hahaha.

what i learned from watching korean boyband reality tv show..?
they can get away with anything by just saying,"YOU ARE SO GORGEOUS!!!"
wth!hahahaha!!!

anyway peeps,
you are so GORGEOUS!
i love u all!!!
bye~

p.s-suju, hwaiting!!!